BENEATH THE BOTTOM OF THE BARREL When i was young, from around age nine into my adulthood, I believed I was not good enough for Jesus. I believed that when I could sing better, write better, do better in school (huh? I was an A-minus/B-plus student for Heaven’s sake), weighed the right amount, had decent-looking eyes, had more confidence, *then* I could consider a closer relationship with Jesus. I remember one time, years ago, hearing our congregation singing the hymn:”His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches me.” I stood outside of the sanctuary, doors shut; sobbing uncontrollably; feeling totally shut out because I was not even worthy enough to be inside singing that hymn. I was lower than a sparrow. I was lower than a cockroach. Jesus knew the number of hairs on everyone else’s head, with no exception, except mine! Why I thought I was so singled out I do not really remember. I feel sad that no one came along, put their arm around me and comforted me, making sure I heard the rest of the lyrics to that hymn. It is a comforting hymn yet I shut it out of my life. Today I still feel sad that this lost person felt so low when what she was believing was simply not true. I am so relieved now to know the difference. Of course, I was the exact kind of person Jesus was trying so hard to reach. It is not that I didn’t believe in Him. I was raised a Christian. I just thought He was way more concerned about other people than me. So I did not feel very close to Him. If there is anyone out there who feels like they are not at the bottom of the barrel, but *beneath* the bottom of the barrel, as a friend of mine once quipped, then here, please allow yourself to take in these comforting words. His Eye Is on the Sparrow Civilla D. Martin, 1905 Copyright: Public Domain Main subject: Comfort Scripture: Matthew 10:29-31 His Eye Is on the Sparrow [.xml] Charles H. Gabriel, 1905 Copyright: Public Domain “Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come, Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home, When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He: His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me. Refrain: I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free, For His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me. “Let not your heart be troubled,” His tender word I hear, And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears; Though by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me; Whenever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise, When songs give place to sighing, when hope within me dies, I draw the closer to Him, from care He sets me free; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.” www.AskInJesusName.org

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