Monthly Archives: April 2015

NOW THAT I’VE SAID ALL THAT … I do believe it is possible for Jesus to heal us completely from whatever ails us. I believe He can totally eliminate “stuff” from our earthly lives. I believe there are words to that effect in the Bible; so I encourage myself and you to find it there. I merely wanted to point out, in previous posts, that this perfection is not all that likely to come upon us in our lives so we need not be disappointed with God if “stuff” continues to happen in our earthly lives. Hopefully we can refrain from thinking or saying “Jesus doesn’t love me anymore, or enough,” or “Why is God punishing me?” when “stuff” happens. It is much more positive and realistic to continue to thank Him for what he has already done for us and will do in the future, and to regard the “stuff” as growing pains and/or lessons/homework for our learning to be more like jesus and also to prepare us for our eternal life in heaven. (off topic note:Maryah, my eldest cat, trounced over my laptop keyboard and my left shift key is broken. I apologize for typos that might be affected by problems with that key in the last several posts.)

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“STUFF”–NOT HAPPILY EVER AFTER–YET Some have said that once we have repented of our sins, been baptized in jesus’ name, and received the Holy Ghost, that we come up out of baptism a different person and that things will go smoothly from then on. i believe we are different when we come up out of the waters of baptism; i know i am. However, “stuff” still happens. “Stuff” that we were already dealing with can continue to happen. “Stuff” that we had no idea was coming can happen to us. “Stuff” that seems bad can happen for our good, when we look back on it later on. The difference, as i perceive it right now, is that i am no longer alone in “stuff” that happens. jesus is always with me, whether I always perceive his Presence or not. Being that I suffer from separation anxiety from early childhood trauma, just having my cats with me has usually been enough to keep me from an outright panic attack at home. However, now that i am much more aware of jesus living with and in me, my likelihood of suffering panic attacks is even less. his Presence fills my home with peace and a feeling of being safe. I hope and pray that i will be safe for the rest of my life. I hope for this for you, too. i take comfort in knowing that i will be safe and secure in Heaven someday and there will be no reason for me to worry about “stuff” happening anymore. i hope and pray for this for you, too, in Jesus’ name. Amen

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FALSE HUMILITY i know that some people like to use the term “wretch” to describe themselves, comfortably singing “that saved a wretch like me …” in the song “amazing grace.” I have never liked that term and I prefer to sing “‘that saved a soul like me.” When one has been regarded as “less than” as much as I have, dumping the terrible load of “wretch” over my head causes me to feel overwhelmed. I realize that I am a sinner, in some respects, however, i am also a valuable, creative, intelligent creation of God. God does not make mistakes; humans do. jesus does not seem to regard my faults as reasons for rejecting me or having lower expectations of me because I cannot physically see. he is much more likely to build me up than put me down. By the same token, I do not believe we are unworthy of His love and support. There may be some people who are, that i do not kknow for sure. But I do not feel that I am unworthy or undeserving of his help. if I really believed that, I probably would not have responded favorably to his help last year when i was in such need of it. I think it is important especially for someone whose level of self-esteem isn’t at the highest floor at which the elevator goes. Some Christians can inflict downright psychological abuse on themselves and others, their own families, in particular; the ones they claim so to love. I believe that Jesus wants us to be humble, in a positive way. I think that when we belittle ourselves or others, we are belittling Jesus himself. I did not follow Jesus’ lead last year because I was so unworthy and such a wretch; i followed Him because it was a compliment from Him; that I, indeed, was valuable enough to Him that He rescued me. Because I am worth salvation to him, I am truly blessed, and you can be, too. No matter what your situation is, or your opinion of yourself is, Jesus is waiting for you to ask Him into your life. he is not going to force Himself on anyone, but give us nudges to follow him.

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THERE’S NO SUCH THING AS A FREE LUNCH As the proverbial saying goes, we do well to understand that when we ask a lot from God, it is only fair that we also heed what he asks of us. I am currently in the stage of figuring out what he wants me to do and actually doing it. it is nice to daydream and plan, however, we need to actually *do* something to glorify Jesus. What He asks of us might seem weird or scary, however, He will help us with whatever it is. In my case, I hit walls of resistance quite easily because many people think that if one is totally blind, he/she is helpless. I am sure there are some helpless blind people around somewhere to bear that thinking out, however, I am not one of them. i hope and pray that whatever my calling is, at this rather late stage of life, that Jesus will help me find the right people who will allow me to do whatever it is. I started this blog for several reasons, primarily to help people who need to find Jesus. however, I also started writing it because I could. no one discouraged me from doing it. I have the full support of the Holy Ghost, and no nay-sayer humans to hold me back.

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YEAH BUT PART 4 “Yeah, but what if I am just not good enough? I make a lot of mistakes and will never be perfect enough for God.” Jesus isn’t interested in the people who don’t need Him. He is interested in those of us who do not have all the answers; those of us who make mistakes; those of us who get upset when things don’t go the way we think they should; those of us who are wandering, confused and lost–those of us who really need Him. He has said that the person who is well does not need a physician. luke 5:31 King James Bible And Jesus answering said unto them, They that are whole need not a physician; but they that are sick. The fact is, we *all* need Jesus! There is no one else who is perfect like Him. There is no one else who has all the answers to our many questions as He has. “yeah but what if I have questions and ask you or someone else something and you don’t have an answer, then should I also not ask Jesus?” It is a fact that I would not have answers to all of your questions, however, Jesus does have all the answers. There is much that I do not know. However, I am certainly willing to go to Him for answers and you could do the same. When someone around you does not have answers, that does not mean there are no answers. We also may not receive answers from God in our time so, for instance, it might not be a good idea to ask Him for answers to test questions as we are taking an exam. I am typing this blog entry at work, between calls. Just as I was writing this particular item, I received a call from someone who was quite irate because we did not have the information he wanted. I explained that we only have phone numbers. I further explained that I could give him the phone number to the entity he wanted and they could give him the information he needed. He did not like that. He said “well, what good are you if you don’t have information? Just having phone numbers isn’t good enough …” Luckily, I could share that instance with my coworkers and we could laugh about it. I reminded myself that this was that guy’s opinion, not that of Jesus and not to feel bad about it. I also felt great relief and thanked God that that particular call had ended. Not only does He answer on His time, but in His way. I remember one time when I was young, when our girls’ group was about to go on stage during a talent contest. My best friend said she had prayed to God that we would win. That seemed selfish to me. I asked her, “what if the ones we are competing with all ask God to let them win? Then what would He do?” We were stymied. We asked the adult in charge of us and she stated that everything happens according to God’s plan and it would be His will whoever would win. We did happen to win that night, so we thanked Him for it. However, when we didn’t win, on other occasions, we wondered if it was God’s will that we didn’t win so someone else could. When we have questions, it is evident that there is an answer–of some kind. All we need to do is ask, in Jesus’ name, And He will answer

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YEAH BUT PART 3 “Yeah, but what if I am angry and yell at God or I am upset and crying so hard the words won’t even come out?” Actually, Jesus is tough enough to handle our anger. He is also compassionate enough to feel our upset or sorrow. He knows our wants and needs before we do. He is always willing to listen. And he *will* answer, even when we are angry or feeling unconsoled. “Yeah, but what if I have a lot of things going on all at the same time and I feel way too overwhelmed?” This is the time to give the concerns over to Jesus, one thing at a time. He will not become overwhelmed so He can handle a multitude of questions thrown at Him all at once. “Yeah, but how do you know He would care about my concerns? He’s way off, far away somewhere, so what would it matter to Him? How would He know all the answers to my issues? How could He really do something about some of the stuff that’s going on, like, is He strong enough to do that?” Jesus is not far away, off somewhere. He is everywhere present (omnipresent). He is all-knowing (omniscient) and He is all powerful (omnipotent). He would not create us and then leave us to flounder alone. Even when it seems as if things are in a terrible mess, He is working everything out for the good of all and to His glory. “Yeah but what good is it for us to suffer? Why doesn’t He heal everyone from every disease, injury, and accident?” When we suffer, going through it and coming out of it glorifies God. Just as when Jesus was crucified, it was all to the glory of God. “Yeah, but what if I love Jesus dearly but my connection to Him is not all that good and I receive few answers from Him?”The only thing I can think of at this point is to pray and pray some more. Be patient with Him, as He is with us, and He will come through.

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YEAH BUT CONTINUED “Yeah but what if He doesn’t have time for my questions and concerns? What if He is too busy with other peoples’ questions?” God is unlimited. He has all the time in the world. He has more time than we do. There is nothing He would not have time to hear from us. Because He is unlimited, and has infinite time, and is available to each of us equally, there really is no way that He would be too busy for us. “Yeah, but what if He’s tired of hearing the same questions over and over throughout the years?” God is patient; He will not mind hearing repeated questions from us. Each person is a unique individual, which He recognizes, and if the same issues come up for many of us, that is okay. “Yeah, but what if I am reluctant to give up my worldly ways, worldly friends, in order to follow Him?” When we make a vow or commitment to His request that we follow Him, we need to learn to obey Him and gladly submit to His will. I am still working on this issue, along with other issues. As long as we work toward putting Him first in our lives and doing what He has asked us to do, even when we are not doing a perfect job of it, He is well pleased with us. My writing this blog is something Jesus asked me to do when I said I didn’t think I could get up in front of people, with tons of enthusiasm and power, to bring people to Him. At first I put up all kinds of resistance:I don’t know enough. I don’t know how to say it right. I can’t write every day at a certain time; I’m not a scheduled person. Although my motives are good, there are so many other people out there who could do way better than me. Why me, Jesus? And on and on. My biggy:what if no one finds me or follows me? He said that my writing would help me and glorify Him, even if no one ever finds me on the Internet. He told me not to worry; that as long as I am connected with Him, I will be able to bring others to Him, or help them be fertile for His rescuing them, as He rescued me.

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YEAH BUT … As of these writings, so far, I am about a year out from being Born Again. I do not have all the answers and never will. But here I will take a stab at answering some often-asked questions; concerns that some might have which hold them back from asking Jesus for help, guidance, wisdom, healing, direction, for what is best in the long run–questions I have asked at one time or other in my life. At times, we may have reasons/excuses for not connecting with Jesus. Here are some common ones: “Yeah, but what’s in it for me? What if I put in all the effort and time to try to reach Him and He never listens to me or ever gets back to me? Praying to Jesus is never a waste of our time. It not only helps us get the answers we so strongly want it also helps us become closer to Him, in a personal relationship with Him. Even if it is not on our time or our idea of the “right” answer, He always answers our prayers. Even when we rather arrogantly tell Him what to do, He listens patiently, waiting for our rant to reach its end. “Yeah, but what I need or want is not important enough for me to ask Him about.” Nothing is of too little importance to Jesus. He wants us to come to Him with everything that is on our hearts. “Yeah, but I would feel embarrassed to talk to God. None of my friends do, and Iwouldn’t want them to find out.” If we feel uncomfortable communicating with Him in front of others, we can always pray when we’re alone. We can also pray in our mind, so that only we and Him know, as we can also listen for His response without others being aware of it. There is no such thing as a stupid question in His mind, that I know of, so it is okay for us to ask whatever we want, without worrying about what others will think. The opinions of others are not nearly as important as whatever is on our minds and Jesus is not opinionated. Another point to consider is that allowing others to know about our special relationship to Jesus can be the beginning to our helping them come to Him. When our prayers have been answered, and He has fulfilled our needs or wants, it can be good to share our testimony with others. To do this would be pleasing to God.

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BENEATH THE BOTTOM OF THE BARREL When i was young, from around age nine into my adulthood, I believed I was not good enough for Jesus. I believed that when I could sing better, write better, do better in school (huh? I was an A-minus/B-plus student for Heaven’s sake), weighed the right amount, had decent-looking eyes, had more confidence, *then* I could consider a closer relationship with Jesus. I remember one time, years ago, hearing our congregation singing the hymn:”His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watches me.” I stood outside of the sanctuary, doors shut; sobbing uncontrollably; feeling totally shut out because I was not even worthy enough to be inside singing that hymn. I was lower than a sparrow. I was lower than a cockroach. Jesus knew the number of hairs on everyone else’s head, with no exception, except mine! Why I thought I was so singled out I do not really remember. I feel sad that no one came along, put their arm around me and comforted me, making sure I heard the rest of the lyrics to that hymn. It is a comforting hymn yet I shut it out of my life. Today I still feel sad that this lost person felt so low when what she was believing was simply not true. I am so relieved now to know the difference. Of course, I was the exact kind of person Jesus was trying so hard to reach. It is not that I didn’t believe in Him. I was raised a Christian. I just thought He was way more concerned about other people than me. So I did not feel very close to Him. If there is anyone out there who feels like they are not at the bottom of the barrel, but *beneath* the bottom of the barrel, as a friend of mine once quipped, then here, please allow yourself to take in these comforting words. His Eye Is on the Sparrow Civilla D. Martin, 1905 Copyright: Public Domain Main subject: Comfort Scripture: Matthew 10:29-31 His Eye Is on the Sparrow [.xml] Charles H. Gabriel, 1905 Copyright: Public Domain “Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come, Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heav’n and home, When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He: His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me. Refrain: I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free, For His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me. “Let not your heart be troubled,” His tender word I hear, And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears; Though by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me; Whenever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise, When songs give place to sighing, when hope within me dies, I draw the closer to Him, from care He sets me free; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me; His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.” www.AskInJesusName.org

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THE RESURRECTION:Happy Easter or Resurrection Day! Let us rejoice! Once again I let God’s Word present the events, this time, for the resurrection and afterward. John 20:2 Then she ran and came to Simon Peter, and to the other disciple, whom Jesus loved, and said to them, “They have taken away the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid Him.” John 20:14 Now when she had said this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, and did not know that it was Jesus. Mark 16:6 But he said to them, “Do not be alarmed. You seek Jesus of Nazareth, who was crucified. He is risen! He is not here. See the place where they laid Him. Luke 24:36 [ Jesus Appears to His Disciples ] Now as they said these things, Jesus Himself stood in the midst of them, and said to them, “Peace to you.” John 1:29 The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him, and said, “Behold! The Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world! John 7:33 Then Jesus said to them, “I shall be with you a little while longer, and then I go to Him who sent Me. John 20:19 [ The Apostles Commissioned ] Then, the same day at evening, being the first day of the week, when the doors were shut where the disciples were assembled, for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood in the midst, and said to them, “Peace be with you.” John 20:29 Jesus said to him, “Thomas, because you have seen Me, you have believed. Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” Prior to His crucifixion and Resurrection Jesus said the following which were true then and true afterHe ascended into Heaven: John 11:25Let us ask for understanding of the truth of the resurrection of Jesus. In Jesus’ n Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. John 11:40 Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?” Matthew 19:26 But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Let us be open to the truth of the resurrection of Jesus and pray for understanding and acceptance of this truth. In Jesus’ name

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