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Jesus is just a crutch Some people say they don’t need help and Jesus is just a crutch. Actually, there is nothing wrong with a crutch, when one needs one. Back around the time that my husband passed on, I was hospitalized with a broken ankle. I was in a wheelchair for 8 weeks and used a walker for several weeks, and then I graduated to a boot. There was nothing shameful about my using these aids. I did not use crutches because the medical staff thought I couldn’t use them, as a blind person. I do not know if this is a fact or not because we never tried. But a walker worked quite well. There are people with permanent physical disabilities requiring crutches, a walker, a cane or a wheelchair for the rest of their lives. Using these devices does not make one more dependent; just the opposite; they give the person independence they would otherwise not have. Jesus wants us to lean on Him; to depend on Him for support. The same people who refuse to use a crutch, seeing it as a symbol of neediness, are more likely to refuse to rely upon Jesus, too. In some cases, the refusal of a crutch is a matter of pride. One is too proud to be seen and he/she feels shame using a supportive device especially in public. Some people often feel that society will see them as less of a person. I’m sorry to say that this is absolutely true in our society; however, that is *their* perception; it does not have to be ours. Such people are often the ones who have too much pride to humble themselves to the point of realizing that they *need* Jesus! So far, in my life, I have not met a person yet who has it so all together that he/she does not need Jesus. We all do; it is something we all have in common. Even those of us who have Jesus need and want more and more of Him; we just can’t get enough of Him! So how do we contact Him, if He has not come for us, as He did with me after I called upon Him? You guessed it! We ask! Asking for help is something we all need to do at one time or another. One who is too proud to ask, or who feels too ashamed to ask, will not ask because he/she does not want to be regarded as needy or as “less than”. Such persons miss out on what Jesus can do for them. “I want to do it myself” can be good when one is determined to function independently. However, rigidly taking this posture in all circumstances is often not helpful. We are better off, in the long run, if we always depend on Jesus, if we depend on ourselves at times and if we depend on others at other times. Such interdependence is a more balanced and more helpful approach for most of us as our lives progress. I had a dream the other night, which prompted me to write this commentary today. In my dream, I was in the hospital with that broken ankle and a guy using a crutch came in to help me with something. He saw my cane and asked if I ever named my canes. I told him all of my canes have been named Bartholomew since my second cane in high school, catly PURRson that I am. (I voiced a kitten’s mew on the last syllable of BartholoMEW.) He said his crutch was named Jesus! He explained that he physically needed a crutch and spiritually needed Jesus. He further stated that he knew Jesus could heal him so he would no longer need his physical crutch, but he would still need Jesus, no matter what. What a testimony! I do not normally remember the particulars of a dream upon waking, but this one was right down my alley. A crutch can be a good thing, when needed. Calling on Jesus is always a good thing! Go ahead and ask Him to heal you from needing a physical crutch. If Jesus does not heal your condition, do not give up and hide out somewhere feeling too proud, or too much shame, but live your life fully, as Jesus would want you to do! Just ask Him. You might experience a miracle!

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When asking is difficult I can think of several reasons/excuses we come up with for not asking God for hellp. Maybe it never occurred to us. Perhaps our parents told us to and we were rebelliously refusing to ask. Maybe we’d asked before and no answer seemed to come at the time or in the way we wanted. Perhaps we were bargaining with Him:I’ll do this if you’ll do that for me.” How about “I’m just too sick to do it.” I am quite ill right now. This bug I thought I’d avoided by getting a flu shot last September sneaked up on me while I was back in the Midwest for my Dad’s memorial service. I’m blaming it on contagion, however, stress from the grief for my loss, the single-digit temperature with below zero wind chill factor, with snow on the ground, all could have helped it. (I live in California now and I have just had my determination to stay out here quite revived, weather-wise. At first I didn’t ask Jesus for help because the beginning bronchitis seemed mild. On the way home, I became worse and worse. I did ask Jesus to help me but rather flimsily. I missed a few days of work, doing nearly nothing. Yesterday afternoon I had made tea and was carrying it to the living room where I could sit and sort of enjoy it, though I had no sense of taste or smell. As I neared my chair, I had a sudden dizzy spell. My body twisted and turned and I tried to both grab the chair and sit while keeping my cup upright so I would not spill burning tea on me. Whew! That was a close one. I realized later that I had help on that gymnastics. I stayed there for some time. I became nauseous after a while and broke out into a terribly cold sweat. I had a hard time until it subsided. I hoped it had been related to the dizziness and that it would have passed, too. So I tried to stand alone. Nope! Couldn’t do it. I started to panic. My laptop that is usually on my desk was in my bedroom during my convalescence. Sending an email for help was out. Both of my phones were in the bedroom. I could not walk over to the neighbor’s apartment to get help, if she was home. Because I am blind, I do not drive so that was out; besides, getting to the car would have been impossible. I was really stuck. So finally I prayed, like Jesus was waiting for me to do! I told Him I needed to just get to that soft warm bed waiting for me in the bedroom, where my phones and laptop also happened to be. No change came immediately, however, the panick attack disappeared. I am one who has a history of panic attacks. I never understood that Jesus could be the antidote rather than medication or just living through them. Today I realized the panic I felt was related to doubt. I felt doubtful that anyone would help me. I felt alone; no one was there. This was simply not true. I had help waiting for me and Jesus was right there inside and around me, not only taking away the unnecessary panic attack but giving me the opportunity to come up with my answer. He knew this illness was taking its course and I had plenty of time to figure out how to get to my bed or to someone to communicate with. I had the idea of moving my chair a little at a time toward my bedroom. That way, I could sit, the chair had arms, so I probably would not fall. However, this bug had gotten to a point where I was far too weak to make this maneuver. I decided to stand behind the chair and push it forward, having it serve as a walker. This was a good plan except for my temporary weakness. So I just sat back and waited like I’d done earlier. My not getting to my bed was certainly not from not trying. I tend to be the type who, if one way doesn’t work, another almost always will. I finally realized that if I could just get the chair to my table and bookcases in the hallway, not too far from where I sat, I would have something to hold onto all the way to my bed. I used the chair as a walker as far as I needed, and though I lumbered and twisted and would have looked drunk to anyone who didn’t know better, I felt my way all the way to my blessed bed! Thank you, Jesus! He didn’t give me the answer right away. He knew I was the type who could brainstorm, even when I was ill. He knew I would come up with His answer, and I did–only because I asked! I may have even begged, please, please help me Jesus! He also knew that I am normally a patient person and I was no longer railing against Him as I’d done in the past. All of the “why won’t you do this?” “why are you letting me suffer like this?” “do you enjoy making us suffer?” etc, has been gone since my baptism in Jesus’ name and receiving the Holy Ghost. When I reached my bed, I crashed. Jesus’ Presence was there with me and I fell asleep. My cats were on the bed with me, aware of my illness, and we had a peaceful rest. I didn’t even cough for a while.

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1 John 2:7 Brethren, I write no new commandment to you, but an old commandment which you have had from the beginning. The old commandment is the word which you heard from the beginning. In John 16:23-24, Jesus teaches us that, “Whatsoever you shall ask the Father in My Name, He will give it to you. Hitherto have you asked nothing in My Name: ask and you shall receive, that your joy may be full.” “Then Peter said unto them repent and be baptized everyone of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost,” (Acts, 2:38.) Now that we are in a new year, most people are making new year’s resolutions that they are likely to forget about after a couple months. If there is any time that people want to do things differently it is now. One thing that does not change is God and His Word. However, our reading His Word and putting it into practice can be a New Year’s resolution that can last far beyond a couple months–it could last for an eternity! I attended Sunday School when I was young where I studied the Bible to some extent. As an adult, I thought the Bible was boring, not written clearly enough for me to understand, and, well, pretty irrelevant. The result of that is that I missed out for years on what neat/cool things God had to say and I missed a close relationship with Jesus through the power of the Holy Ghost. Because I had been baptized at age fourteen, “in the name of the Father, and the Son and the Holy Ghost” I just assumed I’d been saved, so I gave salvation little thought. That could have been a huge mistake for me. So if there is someone out there who is having less than positive feelings about the Bible and/or feels as if Jesus is distant, that can all change for you. Just ask Him! Salvation can be yours. The Great Commission says that if we believe in Jesus and His crucifixion and resurrection; if we admit we have sinned and repent, asking for His forgiveness; if we are baptized by immersion, in Jesus’ Name, and if we receive the Holy Ghost, the sign of which is speaking in tongues (singing, in my case), we will be saved and live with Jesus in Heaven eternally! Though I keep coming back to how things were and are for me, (which I will most likely continue to do) this blog is not really about me. I use my own examples because that’s what I know the best. This blog is for Jesus, so He can help me help you find Him. God and His Word are unchanging but now, as our new year begins, we can change how we respond to His Word and change our relationship with Him for the better–for the best!

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Happy New Year! I am relieved that the holidays are nearly finished for this season. … My Dad passed on Friday morning, the day after Christmas so the holiday was bittersweet. Because I am fairly newly born again, I feared that the grief would overshadow my excitement about Jesus. Just the opposite occurred. I felt the nearness of His Presence which has been a comfort. I am still enthusiastic about Him. … If you are feeling separated from Him, just tell Him and ask Him for what you want.

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